So lets start of with my mother. She only speaks to my Grandma and not my Grandad. My siblings and I have never met him. I over heard her phone conversation the other day and she was explaining to a friend that my grandad has been diagnosed with throat cancer and she said she didn't care. She has 2 siblings, my aunty and uncle, we're no longer in touch with my aunty or cousins because they moved away and I haven't seen my uncle in over ten years. I'm now 18. My oldest brother, who is mix raced is 22. I also have a white brother who is one year younger than him. I'm 18 and I'm black (not dark) and my sister is nearly 15 and is darker than me. Evidently none of us have the same dad and none of us know our dads. It looks really weird on family photos. I've never had a good relationship with any of my family and I genuinely hate them. I don't get on with any of them at all. Sometimes I wish that I had a different family and often have thoughts of my dad coming into my life and whisking me away to have a better life. I live with my 22 year old brother, my sister, my mum and her boyfriend who I have a strong disliking to. They argue every day (theyre arguing now) I know you can't choose your family but I wish I could. They're really horrible people and whenever I over hear them speaking I just instantly get annoyed. Even when my other brother comes over I just hide away in my bedroom. They always say horrible things to me and me and my sister have physical fights. She breaks my belongings, steals my stuff, tells me to die and tells me to slit my wrists (I've made a few suicide attempts in the past) She also criticises my appearance. My mum also swears at me and used to hit me when I was younger. If you asked me who my favourite relative was, I'd say my dog. I can't bring friends or boyfriends round because I'm so embarrassed, I often lie about where I live as well. Once when I was around 7 years old, my friend came round and she asked if my dad was "black and white with stripes because me and my family are all different colours" I genuinely can't wait to move away and lose contact. Does this make me a bad person?
I hate my family so much Watch
- Thread Starter
- 14-04-2013 23:49
- 15-04-2013 23:32
No it doesn't make you a bad person at all mate. It sounds like a really tough situation and I think anyone would feel the same. It doesn't sound like any of them particularly care about how your feeling so it's no surprise that you just wanna get out of there. I'm sorry I can't be of more help but if you want someone to talk to or listen just let me know
- 15-04-2013 23:45
I don't think you're a bad person for wanting a more better and stable life for yourself. It's something everyone wants.
From your post I believe your 18, so if you've got enough money and a good idea where you'd like to go/can afford to live, leave now. If your family treat you as badly as you've described you don't owe them an explanation regarding why you're leaving or anything. And please don't self harm, the world needs more genuine people like you.
If you need someone to talk to feel free to PM me. There's always light at the end of the tunnel...
- 15-04-2013 23:50
Do you know what I hate OP..? People who don't use paragraphs.