I am seriously scarred by then men I have met. First bf - total psycho. Used to hit me, stalked me for months, threatened to kill me, had sex with tens of other girls whilst pretending to be faithful to me...the list goes on. Second bf - whilst with me was constantly obsessing over his ex, he would text her and call and do nice things for her whilst I would spend hours consoling him and reassuring him and making him feel better, only for him to dump me and go back to her, even though she is a complete ***** to him. I truly loved him and would of done anything for him. Third bf - appeared to be romantic, sweet, caring but started to show a really controlling side - wouldn't let me go out with my friends, wear short skirts, make up, would put me down re my looks, he made me lose a lot of confidence in myself, which I never really had in the first place. When I asked him to stop contacting me he texted all my friends rumours about me and threatened to send revealing pics of me to the whole of his facebook - I don't know if this has happened but I am living in fear.
Now when I look at couples - I get a real pain inside. When I hear about someone who has been cheated on I feel empty, when someone gives me a compliment I don't believe it, when I hear the word ex I feel anxious and down, when I see other girls I feel ugly in comparison.....when a guy shows interest in me I make every excuse to avoid them......
Seriously what is the point? I would much rather be single forever
...we were on a break