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    I posted this in the eating disorders thread and didn't get a reply, so I've made a separate thread for it.

    I think I might have an ED. I have such a negative attitude to food. Whenever I look at a plate of food all I can think about is calories and how fat it will make me. I count calories in everything I eat and after lunch every day, I will tally up my calories and make sure I haven't over-eaten. I will do the same again after dinner. If I have had more than 800 after lunch, I feel terrible - more than 1200 in a day and I feel like a failure. Skipping meals feels like an achievement and makes me happy.

    I am always being told how slim I am and that I should eat - I'm 5 foot 5, 8 stone 2 and a size 8-10. I want to lose another stone. I don't care how "unhealthy" it is in terms of BMI, I just want to be thin.

    My boyfriend doesn't realise I'm this bad but he knows I want to lose weight - and he's insistent I don't. He says if anything he'd prefer me a tad bigger. I'm not satisfied with my body though. I know deep down I never ever will be, no matter how small I get. At least once every 10 minutes I will put my hand to my stomach to "feel" whether it's flat enough, and I am always inevitably disappointed with the squishyness of it.

    Do I really have a problem? Or am I just over-obsessive about weight?
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    It sounds like you have an unhealthy relationship with food, maybe go and see your GP and they can refer you to a specialist if they're concerned.
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    You really do have a problem. 1200 calories a day will do you some physical damage in the long run. Go and see a doctor about it, they will know how to help better than people on here.
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    I posted this in the eating disorders thread and didn't get a reply, so I've made a separate thread for it.

    I think I might have an ED. I have such a negative attitude to food. Whenever I look at a plate of food all I can think about is calories and how fat it will make me. I count calories in everything I eat and after lunch every day, I will tally up my calories and make sure I haven't over-eaten. I will do the same again after dinner. If I have had more than 800 after lunch, I feel terrible - more than 1200 in a day and I feel like a failure. Skipping meals feels like an achievement and makes me happy.

    I am always being told how slim I am and that I should eat - I'm 5 foot 5, 8 stone 2 and a size 8-10. I want to lose another stone. I don't care how "unhealthy" it is in terms of BMI, I just want to be thin.

    My boyfriend doesn't realise I'm this bad but he knows I want to lose weight - and he's insistent I don't. He says if anything he'd prefer me a tad bigger. I'm not satisfied with my body though. I know deep down I never ever will be, no matter how small I get. At least once every 10 minutes I will put my hand to my stomach to "feel" whether it's flat enough, and I am always inevitably disappointed with the squishyness of it.

    Do I really have a problem? Or am I just over-obsessive about weight?
    Whether you have an ED or not, it is clear that food is stressing you out a lot. I think you should definitely go and speak to your GP and see what they say. Other alternatives could involve counselling - which may help adress the cause of your eating problems. Hope things work out for you :hugs:
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    Yeah, you clearly have a problem. I mean, thinking and stressing about this stuff so much is a disorder in itself.

    I hope you can find a GP or counseller to help.
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    OP, I am in same boat... I count calories everyday and if I have more 900 calories a day, I feel miserable.. I am 5 foot and weight is 7 stone and I am size 6 to 8.. But for some reason o want to lose more weight.. I cam understand how satisfying it is, when U a meal out.. Think iv got eating disorder too :-(
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    Bless you, it doesn't seem that you have a healthy relationship with food and the whole counting calories seems to be taking over your life a little, especially if you are checking that you are skinny enough every 10 minutes, which I find really sad that you feel that way! You 100% don't need to lose any weight because then you would be far too tiny. You might think it looks nice becasue all the photos of models and stuff look really tiny, but loads of those photos are airbrushed, and with models, well, that's their job; they have personal trainers and dieticians to help them. So please, please don't lose any more weight; it will make you really tired and unhappy.
    Maybe, if you are worried about the "squishyness" of your tummy you could do some toning exercises, although I really don't think you need to because its normal for your tummy to feel that way and you are already small! We all want you to be happy here on TSR which is why people have suggested visiting GP's or counsellors above, and I hope that you might try that out, even just once to see what they say?
    You are beautiful, never forget that. Best wishes, all my love and thoughts will be with you! I hope that maybe you might view food in a different way soon, so that you can live a healthy, happy life, not worrying about calories :-)
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    (Original post by Love Of My Life <3)
    OP, I am in same boat... I count calories everyday and if I have more 900 calories a day, I feel miserable.. I am 5 foot and weight is 7 stone and I am size 6 to 8.. But for some reason o want to lose more weight.. I cam understand how satisfying it is, when U a meal out.. Think iv got eating disorder too :-(
    You are beautiful as you are, you don't need to lose any weight! Eating disorders are so cruel because its psychological, like for you with the satisfaction of skipping meals. I hope you get through this, all our love and thoughts with you. Like has been said, maybe visit your GP or counsellor, even just once to see what they say! Best of luck xx
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    You clearly have an unhealthy relationship regarding food, I doubt at this stage that it's a fully fledged ED. See your doctor or GP and see what advice they give you.
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    I posted this in the eating disorders thread and didn't get a reply, so I've made a separate thread for it.

    I think I might have an ED. I have such a negative attitude to food. Whenever I look at a plate of food all I can think about is calories and how fat it will make me. I count calories in everything I eat and after lunch every day, I will tally up my calories and make sure I haven't over-eaten. I will do the same again after dinner. If I have had more than 800 after lunch, I feel terrible - more than 1200 in a day and I feel like a failure. Skipping meals feels like an achievement and makes me happy.

    I am always being told how slim I am and that I should eat - I'm 5 foot 5, 8 stone 2 and a size 8-10. I want to lose another stone. I don't care how "unhealthy" it is in terms of BMI, I just want to be thin.

    My boyfriend doesn't realise I'm this bad but he knows I want to lose weight - and he's insistent I don't. He says if anything he'd prefer me a tad bigger. I'm not satisfied with my body though. I know deep down I never ever will be, no matter how small I get. At least once every 10 minutes I will put my hand to my stomach to "feel" whether it's flat enough, and I am always inevitably disappointed with the squishyness of it.

    Do I really have a problem? Or am I just over-obsessive about weight?
    It's clear from your post that you have an unhealthy relationship with food. The good thing is that you're aware of it to a degree - you're not in a state of complete denial, thinking your attitude is normal and healthy. Knowing you have a problem is the first step in being able to overcome it.
    :hugs:

    I was like you about a year / 18 months ago. I'm 5''6 and dropped down to 7 st. 9, which looking back was incredibly unhealthy - I lost my curves, my cycle was all over the place, I was tired, etc. My aim for each day was to eat 900 calories or less, and if I ever went over I'd be completely disgusted and really angry with myself. I loved the feeling of my belly cramping with hunger, that feeling of emptiness where you haven't eaten in ages.
    You do not want to get to that stage, trust me it's not nice. I understand your feelings completely - when my best friend told me I looked too skinny, I felt happy and proud of myself, and ignored her when she said I needed to put on a bit of weight.

    Even though it's probably the last thing you feel like doing, try and speak to someone about this, before it spirals out of control. Right now it sounds like you're at a stage where you can stop it before it gets really bad, so please do.
    Best wishes and good luck xxxxx
 
 
 
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