Hello, I'm in my first year studying mathematics. Since I've been at university I've been quite unhappy due to being lonely and not making a lot of friends. I spent weekends at home and dreaded going back there. As a result, my studies have suffered.
In my January exams, i got an overall mark of 58%. I did barely any work through out the year and barely any revision just before the exams. I had just lost any motivation and interest, which was a shock to myself after working so hard at A level to get where I am.
Now my worry is internships, I'm not completely sure what I want to do after university but I would like to do an internship to boost my CV and increase my contacts. My exams are in a few weeks and I'm working my nuts off to do as well as I can in those to try and scrape a 2:1 overall, as that's what most internships want as a minimum. Plus the reason I'm worried I wont get a 2:1 is because I've missed a lot this semester and did poorly in 1-2 of the midterms which count as a small part of my final mark for this semester.
What if I don't get a 2:1 in my first year? Am I at a severe disadvantage? Come second year, I should be in a better place due to living with a few friends and being in a house environment and I am going to work hard from the start to do as well as i can. It's just I'm worried a poor first year mark will make me suffer further down the line.
Anyone been in a similar situation?
Thanks for reading, sorry for the long post
Simon