Not doing well at all really. Depression seems to be creeping back in properly, and I don't think I can do this. I'm back to thinking that I need to do something that I hoped I wouldn't want to do again. Just can't face the thought of feeling like this or it getting worse. And once it gets worse I won't necessarily have the capacity to do certain things anymore, which means I should probably do them asap regardless of doubts. That scares me, since I generally think things through a lot. I dunno. Just can't.