Best day I've had in a long time. Things went wrong, I had an awful headache, I saw friends for probably the last time, friend hurt their knee and I had to do first aid, felt sick and tired all day... but I still feel good! a few friends came over this evening and it was great. I realised how much progress I have made this year. I went through a stage where freaked out if people touched me or came near me and hated the dark and woods. Today I let a somebody hug me in the dark near woods. It's such brilliant evidence of how far I have come. I'm so proud of myself. I still have a lot of progress to make before I'm "normal" and this next year is going to bring a lot of changes, but this gave me a reminder that it is possible. I can do this!
I'm so grateful for my friends. They've helped me so much. I can trust people again now and I can have actual not-faked fun even when I'm depressed.
Don't really know you/your situation to help out right. you say you're in the safest place possible, is it okay to ask where you are? Also if it's the kind of lines I'm thinking of then maybe you might be able to see that perhaps family/friends care about you enough to try put you somewhere safe?
Best day I've had in a long time. Things went wrong, I had an awful headache, I saw friends for probably the last time, friend hurt their knee and I had to do first aid, felt sick and tired all day... but I still feel good! a few friends came over this evening and it was great. I realised how much progress I have made this year. I went through a stage where freaked out if people touched me or came near me and hated the dark and woods. Today I let a somebody hug me in the dark near woods. It's such brilliant evidence of how far I have come. I'm so proud of myself. I still have a lot of progress to make before I'm "normal" and this next year is going to bring a lot of changes, but this gave me a reminder that it is possible. I can do this!
I'm so grateful for my friends. They've helped me so much. I can trust people again now and I can have actual not-faked fun even when I'm depressed.
Glad to hear you can see the light at the end of the tunnel I think looking how far you've come is one of the best ways of reassuring yourself that there is hope, and you can get though it all.
Whenever you feel down, just remember how you felt genuinely happy today, and that as long as you keep trying, things will get better
Hey guys, just wanted to drop in and say sorry for not being around much recently. I've been away at the boyfriend's hiding from the world, and spending some time away along with his support has made me in a much better way . Definitely feel like I'm starting to turn a corner - I know it will be hard what with my CBT starting and such, but it will be worth it
I really hope everyone is doing okay, to anyone who needs them. If anyone ever needs someone to talk to, you're welcome to PM me
Warning: Extremely depressive post. Please don't read if you have any current depressive or suicidal thoughts. Probs bad for Anxiety too. Just needed somewhere to unleash my current thoughts.
Spoiler
Didn't read the spoiler, due to the triggers for my flashbacks and such. But I haven't seen you post before, so welcome to the thread . Everyone here is lovely and supportive, so I'm glad you've posted. Sorry I can't be anymore help, but I'm around if you need a chat
Didn't read the spoiler, due to the triggers for my flashbacks and such. But I haven't seen you post before, so welcome to the thread . Everyone here is lovely and supportive, so I'm glad you've posted. Sorry I can't be anymore help, but I'm around if you need a chat
Hey, Thanks
Yeah I've kind of been silently stalking the thread for a while now Only posted a couple of times when I've been feeling really down or struggling to sleep, but want to start posting more as everyone seems so nice.
And yeah it's probably best if you don't read the spoiler. Do you think I should edit it out? as it's probably not any good for anyone to read? Or does that not really matter?
Yeah I've kind of been silently stalking the thread for a while now Only posted a couple of times when I've been feeling really down or struggling to sleep, but want to start posting more as everyone seems so nice.
And yeah it's probably best if you don't read the spoiler. Do you think I should edit it out? as it's probably not any good for anyone to read? Or does that not really matter?
Imo the fact you're talking about suicide probably means it'll be deleted if you don't edit it.
Yeah I've kind of been silently stalking the thread for a while now Only posted a couple of times when I've been feeling really down or struggling to sleep, but want to start posting more as everyone seems so nice.
And yeah it's probably best if you don't read the spoiler. Do you think I should edit it out? as it's probably not any good for anyone to read? Or does that not really matter?
No worries
Ah, fair enough. Yeah, everyone is lovely made a couple of really close friends because of this
Uhm, I'm not really sure because I don't know how bad it is because it's likely it will trigger me. I'm not really a mod, so I can't really say if it matters or not, sorry. But you said it was just your thoughts and feelings (so with me not knowing what it says) then I imagine it's okay? But I can't judge as I have no idea about the post
Whoops... probably should have read that first, sorry. Trust me to do something stupid in one of my first posts I've edited it now to tone it down a notch and got rid of the suicidal things.
Uhm, I'm not really sure because I don't know how bad it is because it's likely it will trigger me. I'm not really a mod, so I can't really say if it matters or not, sorry. But you said it was just your thoughts and feelings (so with me not knowing what it says) then I imagine it's okay? But I can't judge as I have no idea about the post
Yeah sorry, I kind of realised after posting that it was a bad idea to ask you about it. I think my Meds are just making me even more clumsy than normal tonight . Thanks again for the warm welcome though
Whoops... probably should have read that first, sorry. Trust me to do something stupid in one of my first posts I've edited it now to tone it down a notch and got rid of the suicidal things.
If you're new you're bound to not know the forum rules, nothing to be sorry for You're not the first and definitely won't be last to not be aware of them I second what Sarah too, everyone in here is absolutely lovely and they're amazing support, so hopefully you'll find this place to welcoming and awesome.