Hey sorry this is a bit depressing...
My brother is 3 years older than me at 18 nearly 19. I have known he has had autism for all of my life. When I was little it didn't really matter. But now, he acts like a weirdo 6 year old. He does now go to college in Devon, meaning I only see him in the holidays, but this means when I finally see him, his annoying traits are highlighted more. I don't go out with my parents as a family any more with him because it's so embarrassing.
He wakes up at 5:30 or earlier, and he bangs round the house, which wakes me up early and makes me tired during the day.
Also because he is older than me he can be quite scary. He talks/whispers/sings all the time and it really annoys me when he is doing homework, if I ask him to be quiet more than once he can suddenly charge at me, and when my parents were out of the room he has hit me and kicked me before. I told them, but because I quite openly hate him they didn't believe me and said he had "reduced muscle tone" so he couldn't have had the co-ordination or strength to hit me. Yet, they know when I was younger he pushed me down the stairs. I don't have friends over to my house if I can help it when he's home, especially as his bedroom is filled with toys for kids; but this means I can't have my friends over during the holidays. He also has "Gilberts syndrome" which basically meant he lost a load of weight, so my parents and grandparents were fussing over him. My parents still make a thing of feeding him cakes, chocolate etc and because I am not exactly tiny they try to diet me all the time. And they say they treat us equal!
(sorry I am ranting here!) I just want to make a point and say I don't hate autistic people! I have a friend who has autism (asbergers) and he is one of my best friends! He is kinda my replacement brother.
Is anyone out there in a simular situation to me?
I am sorry if I seem really weird/mad/*****y
I would never be horrible to any other autistic person (at the most a bit wary if they were a bit like my brother) apart from my brother. Whilst we were having an argument, my mum said "it seems like you wish you never had a brother, or you wish he was dead!" and I couldn't answer her, because I couldn't give her the honest answer.
Thanks for reading, kinda helps me vent it out, and sorry it's really weird, I know i am gonna get a lot of hate for posting this.