I'm just so sick and tired of everything. I just want to relax for a few months then go to uni. Uni is the light at the end of my tunnel. But first, I've got to put up with exams, and worst of all, I have to pass some of them. I need ABC/BBB to get into my first choice uni, and at the moment I'm on ABB, so have to work at least a little bit to keep those grades up. But really, I'm just between one part of life and another. Secondary school is over, I never tried my best, because I couldn't be bothered, and it's too late to start now, and socialy my life up until now has been a non-event. Unlike two years ago, where there was a huge send off after GCSEs, and I felt like I'd accomplished something, now I'm just so bored with exams after having them for the past 3 years, that it's just been another year at school, and life at school has just slowly petered out into nothingness. I've loved this girl for the past 3 years, and wanted to go to the prom with her, but does she? No. She wants to go as a group. So there we go, no grand finale, no great ending, just exams, then a long, crap summer to worry about my results.
In short, I feel like I'm in a rut, at a point in my life where I should be trying my hardest and have great ambitions. Even after exams are over, I still won't feel finished till I get my results, and can finally relax with the knowledge that I can go to uni. I just want this part of my life, (which is supposed to be the best of all, and has actually been pretty crap) to be over.
Anyone else feeling like this at the moment?