For the last 6 years I've avoided getting a job and instead taking any educational things I can, college, BTEC's and even university. I try anything to avoid getting a job but now the time has come where I have to choose, a job or the streets.
The problem is I'm just too scared to get a job, I'm too scared of messing up, being judged ect and I absolutely can't stand being the "new kid on the block" so to speak when applying for a job.
Let's say I apply for an office based job, everyone there alreadys knows each other, they're already friends and are totally comfortable with their job. Then I turn up and I know nobody, I'll feel like an idiot if I mess up and I just feel like an idiot for being new...
I think I've finally realised that I have social anxiety. I don't mind meeting new people when everyone is knew and we are all in the same boat but meeting new people when everyone knows each other already is terrible and extremely daunting.
I have severe issues with eye contact and I find it impossible to look people in the eye, if I do it's for a second at the most then I have to look away.
All this is relatively new and I only started experiencing this at about the age of 16.
I don't know what to do, I just want a job where I can be by myself without being watched. Something like a delivery driver would be awesome but I don't drive. I don't want to be dozed up on pills and I'm very against anything that modifies the way my brain thinks or acts.
What is the doctor likely to do / say if I go to see him, will he just tell me stuff I already know such as you need to practice being aroud new people ect even though that isn't the problem.