I feel I am trying deal with the fallout this can cause (and failing). Parents divorced when I was 6, at the custody hearing my mother never appeared as she had gone on holiday, so custody was given to my father. I loved my dad, but he was not an overly emotionally person, no hugs or such. What neither of them realised though was that I just did not lose my mother, I lost aunts, uncles, cousins, and grandparents (my fathers side of the family had never been present). My family was an emotionally cold environment, an older abusive bullying brother, and an emotionally absent father. I am 43 now and find I resent so much, so many people. Even my father who after all said and done always put his kids first. He passed a few years back and every day I miss him. I don't seem to be able to move on, I am shackled by my past, and other peoples errors. Then I feel "cheap" as I am blaming my problems on others. Am lost, may be putting this out in the world will help somehow.