Missing friends

Okay, so, I really miss someone I used to be very close to, as a friend. I miss her pretty much all the time - I miss having a connection with her, and being able to share my life with her. I miss her worldview, and little things she does that, at the time, seemed rather quirky but insignificant, but now have turned out to be indicators of a lovely, unique personality. Can I just take this moment to say that you should tell people you love them when you have them, because when you don't, afterwards, it hurts.

We had a row at the end of year eleven, and although we ostensibly patched it up, things didn't heal. I wish now that they had, and that I had been more forceful in my efforts to try and repair this friendship that means more to me than I could probably explain.

I haven't got over it, in nearly two years, because I still see this girl around my college, and it has just hit me that I haven't got much time left to be with her, in the whole of my life. I may never see her again after this year as we go our separate ways. That scares me so badly that I couldn't even begin to tell you.

I realise this has lesbian undertones (or overtones!) but genuinely, sexual desire is not a motivating factor in this problem.

My issue is, is it now worth my going up to her and trying to 'repair' things, or even just trying to meet up, after all this time has elapsed? If someone you were very close to, but that over the last two years or so you haven't really had that much to do with and that you probably don't really think that much about anymore suddenly contacted you, how would you feel?

Should I just try and get on with this, accept that things ended and prepare for the rest of my life at university in september, or is it worth my 'giving it a shot' and risking complete heart-break but also risking incredible joy and, finally, closure?