So I have found out recently that my parents are splitting up, Sine Ive gone to Uni Ive noticed that they seemed to be drifitng apart, and at holidays and all they didnt talk but I didnt realise it was this bad. Its really hard to be there while Im at Uni, and Evertyime I talk to my mum I worry so much about her because she is not the best at dealing with bad situations, and I think shes depressed.
The problem is this is all because of my dad, We have found out recently He has been having an affair (Something I suspected around 3 years ago but then thought I was wrong - no idea how long it has been going on). I want to hate my dad so much for what hes done to Mum, and to me and my brother.. I really do but I cant because hes still my Dad. I just dont know what to do, I was shopping today looking for cards and stuff and I just couldnt bring myself to be around all the Fathers day stuff.. and broke down in the shop. He has text me today about picking me up (I go home on Friday) and said he knows that Im not happy with him (He actually said he was worried I would hate him) but hed always be my dad. Its hard to try and hate him which Is what I feel like alot of the time, and ignore the fact I still love him.. I just dont know what to do. He's never been a bad father, But I just cant beleive he could do this to us.
I suppose It was just nice to get that off my chest, as I havent told anyone elese because I just dont want to burden them. I just dont know How to act when I go home because I dont want to hurt my mother, or my father.
Thanks for listening.