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    This is quite a long post so thanks in advance if you get through it.

    For the last five to six years (I'm 22) I've felt constantly low. I wouldn't know the difference but for a brief time when I started uni (at 19), about two to three weeks, I was what I'd consider to be happy.

    It has been getting worse in recent years, there's sort of a bleakness ahead. During my gap year I was looking forward to university, it was something that offered new friends etc. Now, going into my final year in September, things are looking much worse. I have no idea what I want to do for a living but facing loads of pressure to sort it out and mocking for not having yet secured anything (work exp, grad job, etc). I'm not really motivated by money so I'm trying to find something I'm passionate about but none of it seems feasible as a career option.

    I'm also alone most of the time, my group of friends from college have all sort of grown apart, I have one I talk to regularly, the rest I don't see or speak to. I have close friends at uni so it's not so bad but when I move home for holidays it gets worse. This summer has probably been the worst, I've been feeling pretty depressed, not left the house socially or gone to see a friend in the last two months. It's a downward spiral really as it makes me feel more awkward and weird and like an outsider. I see other people my age having all these great experiences of youth and I can't say I've had any of those. I don't have a close group of home friends, I don't meet new people, I wouldn't know where to start.

    In terms of sex and relationships there's nothing going on. I'm too depressed and don't have anywhere to start when it comes to socialising and meeting new people. I've pulled a couple of girls in night clubs but that's it. I was hung up over a girl for pretty much all my time at uni so far, but I realised it was ridiculous as it was happening. She didn't talk to me much and now we haven't spoken in coming on to a year, it feels weird she was a major part of my life but she probably never thinks of me. I'm pretty sure she was a little attracted to me but I never really did much about it (it was complicated) now I'll just never know which sucks. I don't ever see myself being with someone for any purposes beyond just having sex, relationships seem strange to me. This is another aspect of life which I see other people my age living through, and I'm sort of isolated, unable to really connect with anyone or get involved in it.

    Browsing this forum the other day I discovered how maladaptive daydreaming was a condition, I realised instantly that I began doing this for around six years, imagining I was giving interviews having been recognised for my work in music or movies, or just generally living in a fantasy land for hours a day whilst listening to music doing nothing. I was kind of disgusted at myself and cut it out instantly, my mind has wondered in the last day or so but only as much as what I assume would be normal.

    I guess what makes me feel as if this is the lowest point of my depression is that there is no real hope that I feel for the future, everything seems pretty meaningless. I want help, or rather to know if I need help, I'm not sure what to do. I've not been diagnosed but I don't feel this is normal.
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    Low mood over a sustained period of time like that is something of a tell-tale sign of depression. Have you spoken to a GP about this? That's the first step when it comes to dealing with things like this.
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    Low mood over a sustained period of time like that is something of a tell-tale sign of depression. Have you spoken to a GP about this? That's the first step when it comes to dealing with things like this.
    No, I don't really feel comfortable speaking about it in person, my GP is especially useless too. If needed I might wait until I'm back at uni to speak to my GP there
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    No, I don't really feel comfortable speaking about it in person, my GP is especially useless too. If needed I might wait until I'm back at uni to speak to my GP there
    I understand that, I was never comfortable speaking about it to my GP but really that's got to be the first port of call, talking to a health professional. If you don't like your current GP then wait until you're back at uni, but I'd strongly recommend going to talk to a GP.
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    Hey I'm a 22 girl and I can relate so much to what you've just said. PM me if you want to chat. I literally daydream my life away.
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    I didn't know excessive daydreaming could be a condition. I pretty much daydream all the time and have done since I can remember, at primary school I never had friends so I would literally walk around the playground in my own fantasy, I know that's normal for a kid but it continued in high school and even college where I would sit in class and fantasise all day, of course this meant I never really had many friends and the friends I did have got annoyed with me for dazing in and out of conversations. I still now spend most of my time at home with my music on daydreaming for hours on end yet it feels like no time at all. I always found this comforting though. My own little escape. Never considered it to be a condition. I'm starting uni later this month and I'm going to the doctors before hand to try sort out some other problems like my social anxiety and depression I might mention this aswell.


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