.. what the hells wrong with me?

well, it probably is partly to do with my bf and ehre is where im gonna sound so desperate, i actually need him in my life coz hes my best friend and the only one there for me.
my family dont rly care and i never see them anyway and as i said before my friends dont rly care either
and i js duno what id do coz hes the only one

um.. yeah i went to the doctors.. all they said was it's depression.. but obviously they cant sort of change the things in my life if you know what i mean?

Reply 4

You clearly want some help off some one otherwise you wouldn't have posted the thread, i know it may be a difficult step but have oyu tried visiting a doctor, if not try taking some one you trust along with you to be there. I think thats your best bet because Doctors have knowledge and know what they are talking about, they can help you in ways our replies can't.
I'll pray for you :smile:

x x x

Reply 5

it seems to me that your suffering from depression...i could be totally wrong so please dont take things to heart..i suggest you see your doctor and explain to him/her about your situation...i wish you all the best and please do keep us posted :hugs:

Reply 6

i just feel like nothing will ever cure this though

i went to the doctors and he was crap

all he said was you're depressed or stressed.. to which i said what can i do

and he said you need to sort the things out that r makin u depressed but obvs i dont know how to do that and i see no way out to the pain and hurt im feeling now

Reply 7

Ting-Ting

juicylgd

um.. yeah i went to the doctors.. all they said was it's depression.. but obviously they cant sort of change the things in my life if you know what i mean?

are you gonna consider trying anti depressants? or maybe counselling? maybe talking to your mam would help get things off your chest/?

Reply 8

i dont think so, cos she wouldnt really talk to me anyway, shes busy and above that shes not really the caring type and ive tried before

plus when im always upset and stuff she just gets mad at me

Reply 9

Well what are the things exactly that are making you depressed and we can try and come up with constructive ways to help you get over the particular things?! Don't feel like you have to, just an idea to see if we can help!? x x

Reply 10

i reckon you should try counceling...it could help.

Reply 11

college, im supposed to be getting four as. and because half of the year, i did attend, but i was never "there" in lessons, i couldnt concentrate, just start crying etc and became overwhelmed with work

everyone at home constantly argues and i feel victimised, my sister seems to be the favourite and she always makes up lies about me which everyone believes

i never see my dad, and when i used to live with ihm he used to shout a lot and hurt us. i constantly seem to have nightmares about this in which im his slaves and have to do house chores forever and run up and down the atairs with the vacuum in my hand for hours and hours.

my friends have ditched me coz of all this

i worry about my boyf even tho he's gone "legit" now. we often argue which upsets me

my headache seems to have got even worse tonight and now i seem to be crying over i dunno what god how pathetic.

i actually like being at college and am dreading the holidays coz i hate spending time at home

and coz my bfs muslim we only really see eachother SOMETIMES at college anyway, cos my mum doesnt know about him and his parents cant know about me. and my mum is pretty strict and doesnt let me go out that much

i seem to spend all my time just stuck in my room

Reply 12

im a muslim and my ex girl useto be one aswell...she often spends most of the time in her room too...you remind me of her actually...she felt exactly the same way you did....crying all the time and just feeling really low..there wasnt much i could do for her...even after we decided to leave each other....i still spoke to her and sort of just made her laugh all the time...but i could never really make her happy...i had always thought that it was her parents who where making her feel really low...are you quite close to your parents?

Reply 13

I really don't know what to say off the top of my head, but i'll go off and have a think about things that mite help a little and get back to you x x x

Reply 14

no i'm not close to my parents at all

i hate my dad for everything he's done, we never got on anyway.and my mum, she's rarely there and she just doesnt seem to care for me

x

Reply 15

I know you probably won't want to hear this but anger and bitterness towards other people can make us physically ill. I know its not easy, its very hard in fact but the only way to actually move forward in life is to forgive people for the things that are holding you back. x x

Reply 16

tessa

hey

it seems to me like u are looking for help but dont really know where to turn

like u say you cant speak to your family, or friends or bf.,.and have tried the doctor unsuccessfully

is there anyone at your college you could talk to...like one of your teachers or something,....they must notice something is up if ur not achieving your best or whatever cos of the stress and they will probably want to help..or a tutor or year head or whatever ...your school with prob have someone who can help/is more experienced in this stuff.....

if you cant face talking to a teacher how bout putting it into a letter or something and giving it to them...people often find it easier to right down their troubles and find it less embarrasing etc

even though it might seem like a huge thing to you and your life is falling apart and no one can help/ know what you are going through in all likelyhood many other pupils at the school maybe in similar situations....with life seemingly crumbling round them and no path forward.....u would prob b surprised....because of course like many, they dont tell all their friends etc. of all their problems.....

colleges/ schools can often be discrete and have a code of confidentiality...UNLESS they think you are at serious risk...either from yourself or from someone else...in which case obviously they have an obligation to tell someone, but they might be able to find you some more proffesional help etc....they will probably have more contacts/ experience than you and so be able to find you some sort of help..or discuss options with you

even if it turns out they arent much help....at least you might gain some knowledge/help and its always worth a try in my opinion....
or maybe rather than someone at college there is someone else outside family etc that would be able to advise you or something/ talk through all your troubles with....but i think teachers are always a good bet....most schools/colleges have special systems set up for such things

hope you get things sorted soon

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