Bisexual Attraction or Admiration?

So... for the past few years I've thought I might be bisexual. I never really gave it any thought until 2 of my friends came out as bi when I was 14 (they're now actually gay ).

I'd never even known there was such a thing as Bisexuality, but being introduced to the concept got me thinking, and 5 years later I'm still struggling with the different levels of attraction to someone and how they apply to sexuality.

For example, for most of my life I didn't even identify as *straight* because unfortunately it was never really 'explained' to me that there was anything other than straight. But I find myself being attracted, in some way or another, to women, albeit quite selectively and not too often.

But what confuses me is whether it's attraction I feel, or admiration/appreciation of beauty. I mean, I'm not repulsed at all by the idea of having sex with a girl. But I don't know whether that's just my 'open-mindedness/willingness to experiment' coming through. I seem to have the ability to think of a woman as 'good-looking' without being *attracted* to them, but there are others whom I find 'good-looking' but would gladly sleep with.

On the other hand, although I *know* I feel very physically attracted to men, to be frank penises gross me out.

But still a part of me wonders if this has all stemmed from a simple desire to fit in with my 'bi' friends when I was younger. Sigh.

I had the same thing as you, although penises never were weird to me. I was just very attracted to men but also love beautiful women! But do I love them because they're nice to look at and admire, or do I want to sleep with them? I would sleep with them. But again am I just very open minded? I've come to the realisation that I just like sex and people I'm very open minded and gender isn't a big deal to me with regards to whether someone's attractive or not

I've come to not care. I class myself as bisexual but I prefer to date men (I connect emotionally with men more than I do with women), I have a lovely boyfriend, I'm happy. Who gives a ****? Straight, bi, whatever, I'm cool with who I am.

Anon because I'm not out, not because I'm ashamed, but because my sexuality is no one else's business.