So I don't really know what I'm asking here but.. essentially i've lost my best friend.
I've known her since we were 14, we were really close, the kind of best friend that you have all the goofy private jokes with, tons of memories, went on holidays together.. I'm 19 now, and for the past year we've drifted further and further apart.. to the point where I see no point trying to drag this friendship on anymore. She just doesn't really seem to want to know anymore. It's always me who texts her first, it's always her that takes an age to reply, it's always me who makes the plans to go places, it's her that makes no effort what-so-ever. Sure she'll reply and go yeah i'm up for that, but then either bails on me or when we do go out it's just not the same. She's almost passive-aggressive towards me. She's left me for her boyf/boys on nights out etc. I've been so unwilling to let this friendship go because I've felt like she's the only friend who really knows me? I have other friends but they're all either boys or new girl mates. And the kind of friendship I used to have with her meant the world to me, I always felt like I had the best friend ever. And now I don't. I don't have a best friend anymore.
Not because she died, not because we had a massive argument, not because of something terrible, .. she just stopped caring, stopped wanting to be my closest friend, stopped wanting to be a real friend at all.
Just kinda end up wondering, what the point of it all was? All the sleepovers, all the advice, all the shared jokes and laughs and tears, all the cinema trips and nights out, all the shared broken hearts and pain. All of it. What was the point in any of it?
Sigh. How do I move on from this broken friendship and just, forget about her? How do I stop trying to keep a friendship alive that's well and truly dead?