Recently (well for all of the first year at uni to be honest) ive felt really low in confidence, in a career/academic sense. Ie not in a social sense, just that I really dont think I am the 'top grade' student I once was, and that im destined for a career in a boring job.
im currently studying for a Business degree, which i am finding dull and challenging: which is a sharp contrast to GCSE and A Level where I scored top marks in the subject, often getting full marks in modules. Also I was full of energy and confidence about my career, had lots of different business ideas etc I can accept that ANY degree course would be hugely more challenging, but this has been a huge jump. A Level business was nearly all discussion and case studies, whereas now its just maths and graphs (which arnt my best skills)
Ive found university demoralising, and am now having to face a long summer of just socialising (which to be honest ive spent too much of the last 10months doing) and doing a part time job which is rather tedious. Which just really doesnt fill me with excitement.
Bascially i feel 'trapped' in boredom and lack of ideas, and really need a new challenge. As ive said, ive had this feeling for ages, I just feel like im "treading water" and not going anywhere.
I really wish to do something really spectacular, like start my own business (which costs loads and is very risky) or go on a small gap year over the summer (I still wish to finish my course, despite the fact I dont find it that interesting)
So has anyone else felt like this? (really lacking energy, i can barely be bothered to wake up these days..which as ive said, is a stark contrast to how hard i worked from GCSE-A Level)
and can anyone think of any ideas for things I could do to make myself feel confident? (ie in a career sense, im fine socially etc)
I could use some ideas to help me feel like i have a purpose..be it jobs, courses, or just how to think differently. Any help is appreciated.