Want to go to doctor about potential social anxiety... but I'm too scared to Watch
However, ever since I was about 8 I have just had this massive issue with doing anything for fear of how others would perceive me. Complete strangers? Nope can't talk to them in case I see them again and they recognise me. People I know? Don't start.
The trouble is that it is affecting my life so badly now. I can't get to sleep for hours as I just re-live all these conversations in my head that went not quite to plan or I could have said something else. I know you're thinking this is normal, but these thoughts are completely irrational to just what another person has probably forgotten already.
Only my head can't seem to get around that concept. I'm left most often in a sobbing mess as I can't stand the way my head deals with these kind of situations.
Before I was too scared to even knock on a door in school, and even now I refuse to walk into assembly late (I have a library shift at lunch which means I am sometimes late for assembly) as I know people will look at me. I know they won't judge me at all, but it's just the attention.
Giving presentations give me such an adrenaline rush and pounding headache... and I shake like there's no tomorrow which makes me even more ashamed.
I'm terrified of using phones. I don't want to ring anyone for fear of getting the wrong number and seeming like an idiot. I don't want to pick it up as I might not know them.
People tell me just to relax as people don't care, but I can't help but think they do.
I'm too scared to even try to make myself seem attractive to guys (as a bit of a hopeless romantic this is just horrible) or be myself. I always seem to say the wrong thing.
Anyway, I've rambled too long. If you've read this far you are amazing.
I want to go to the doctor's about this as it's interfering with my life too much. However I only went recently about something else unrelated so I worry they'll judge me for coming in too soon.
Or what I'd say. Or how they'd respond. Or if they'd even help at all (last time I went about an eating disorder they thought I was faking it for attention and told me just to eat more fruit...).
So, should I go to the doctor's? How do I get myself to talk about it? And what do I say?
Go to the doctors and just let them know what's up, if you can't tell them physically then write it down and show them. Good luck!
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I don't really want to get started on medication if possible as I don't want to be dependent on drugs to be able to get confident or not worry so much.
If you feel the same, I strongly advise getting help as soon as possible. If you can't get yourself to book an appointment, maybe ask you parents or one of your friends to sit with you when you make the phone call.
Good luck OP!
I know it can be scary to book an appointment with a doctor, but you have to remember that you have the potential to live such an amazing life, and you're not doing that at the moment. Doctors can be scary, but at the end of the day there is a chance your doctor could gift you the life that you want to live, and free you from this constant cycle of worry.
They will have seen it lots of times, will know what to do and how to help, so you can absolutely remove this anxiety from your life if you can just take this first step.
I wish you the best of luck. Make the phone call ASAP - as then it's over and done with, and you don't have to do it again.
I went to the doctor's today and they said I have anxiety and potentially depression, and I've been referred on to a therapist.
The phone call was horrible to make, but I'm glad it's done, so thank you all again for the help!
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Hi can I ask how you told the doctor as I am in the same boat and have a doctor's appointment tomorrow and I am freaking out.
Good luck with your appointment tomorrow. You might find it helpful to write things down and bring that in with you to look at or just pass it to the doctor to read. Getting the right words out in the moment can be quite difficult. You might like to include any questions you have in that note.
You could also do stuff that you find calming before the appointment (I like to listen to music before anything I find stressful).