Suicide

I know pretty much how you feel at the moment- I don't get a kick out of life either, there seems to be nothing I enjoy- I'd rather be asleep than awake because at the moment I've got nothing to get out of bed for.

hey it works for some people

But i would acheive something through suicide , i wouldn't be so upset anymore

People may have suggested this but it sounds like a case of clinical depression to me. That'll be why you have no motivation for your course and feel as though you just can't attend lectures. Antidepressants are bad bad bad things, but if they stop you from feeling worse, then they may be a good idea - otherwise, professional counselling will probably help. Symptoms of depression normally include lack of enthusiasm for almost anything, sadness (although believe it or not sadness isn't necessary), hypersomnia (sleeping more than you should, consistently), low self-esteem ("I have no friends" etc.) and it's these symptoms that cause suicidal thoughts, not the depression itself. Antidepressants actually heighten your chance of suicidal thoughts, but then they relieve your depression so might help you to get your life back on track, by which time you won't feel suicidal or depressed at all.

Something I found used to help was waiting till everywhere was quiet and going for a walk in a park or something... somewhere vaguely picturesque, quiet and deserted, even if you're not into that sort of thing (I'm not). It gives you time and space to think where your life is going and how you want your life to go on, rather than whether you want your life to go on. It's a cliché, but things can only get better... I'm not a believer in reincarnation so no matter how crap life is I know it will end for me one day, permanently, and no matter how **** things might be right now, there is that remote chance they will be better later - and if they're not, well, no harm done. That's why I've never been suicidal despite my depression.

ok this is going to be brutal

wake the hell up you selfish little git, you wanna kill yourself then your going to do two things, first prove to everyone that you are a waste and a failure and the other thing your gonna do which is far more important is you are going to make everyone who loves you in a life a misery How the hell do you think your parents are going to feel when they find your corpse the morning after, how about your brother sisters and friends, the guilt they will live with. Your fathers words will haunt him for the rest of his days.
Killing yourself is the easy way out the cowards way out the i cant be arsed with it all way out. Killing yourself is easy grab a rope a sharp blade a pack of pills its all over quickly for you but those who are left behind are the ones that really suffer. Your gone your not going to care and all you will leave as your epitaph is misery. Your a selfish little **** to be thining this is the only option for you. Giving up is easy fighting is hard. Life is hard if it was easy then it would be boring and the world can throw some real nasty knocks your way. Whilst your being a banquet for worms you parents and family and friends will have to struggle with the loss. You kill yourself and all you prove is that you dont have what it takes.
Life is hard deal with it the way the rest of us do, the way we all have to go on with it. You want to prove your father wrong then fight it make something of yourself.
So you failed uni
so bloody what?
Theres more to life than schooling.

OK NOW BEFORE EVERYONE NEG REPS ME WITH YOUR A B*STARD AND YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOUR TALKING ABOUT AND SOME OTHER LOAD OF EMO CRAP HERES MY STORY

I've been depressed. From the ages of 11 till i was 20. I had to see a consuller at 11 becasue in school one time some students actually caught me when i was about to hang myself.
When i was 15 i actually went to kill myself. I took a heart stimulant overdose for reasons i dont need to disclose. My grandparents caught me vomiting in the toilet, and i didnt tell thm. THey then had to hold me down as i was thrashing in my bed through convulsions. In the ambulance i still didnt tell them what happened saying i had been given some red sweets at school. (i dont remmeber any of this i got told when i woke up) Once in the hospital i was in a coma for a week and four major and one minor heart attack, my viens collapsed, my stomach was nearly twisted inside out and my lungs flooded. My grandparents and mother were told twice i would not live through the night. My friends came in in droves At one point i was dead for 33 seconds before they revivied me.

I was were you were OP, i thought i had nothing left, no life no future nor friends i thought i was a screw up and that it would genuinely be better if i was dead.
The gods spared me it wasnt my time at least, i believe that.
But there is always something out there. This world can be cruel yes i agree but it can also be an amazing wonderful beautiful place filled with amazingly funny wierd wacky people.
You failed uni? Heres another thing i skipped college i never went i had enough of school. I went straight into full time employment. By the time i was 19 i was running my own department as a junior manager. Now at 24 im a manager in a banking call centre. There is so much in life to see and do.

Two things.
First off, the reason i said what i said at the top is that "dont kill yourself" is all well and good, but sometimes you need a sharp shock to wake up a bit. I had one from one of my best friends (though i didnt realise it at the time) when i was still in the hospital. She really laid into me, and it made me realise what id done was stupid. I dont have regrets in my life becasue to regret is not to learn the lessons. I dont regret what i did as it made me a much stronger person in time. It took a few years but i got there. Now im just an arrogant jerk heh heh.
Two.
Music can help not EMO crap like stained but proper music. A sng that pulled me through a lot was meat loafs "everything louder than everything else" particualrly one line and maybe you should consider it

"a wasted youth is better by far than a wise and productive old age."

Education is not the end of the world if you screw it up who cares. There is nothing in life you cant get providing you are willing to work for it. And that includes enjoying yourslef in life. I learned some hard lessons when i was younger but what doesnt kill you makes you stronger.

Life can be a bitch but it can also be wonderful.
If you need to scream at someone you can scream at me

cadre

It's still awful advice. This isn't a bout of sadness, it's depression, in the medical sense. No amount of music will cure that.

Only this year was I absolutely broken hearted and not at ease with the world after an Oxford rejection, failed driving tests and an absolute shambles of a Christmas due to tragic family events. Yes, measly to some, and no doubt as Cadre suggests the O/P here should wake up, but really, it can take some trivial things to really bring people to rock bottom.

Odd as it sounds, I DO believe there's a link between music and depression: seriously now, all we have to do is look at the so-called emo and goth subcultures (often into heavier music), and you (or at least I have anyway) see an alarming number of them often feel depressed.

Hello again

Thanks for all you replies.

Feeling slightly better today, apart from....

The fact that i have to resit a module that i have no idea how to do (well in fat 5 modules) in august. Thus completely ruining my 21st birthday (in august), my holiday (in august) and everything in general. I don't get this work that i have to do, i just don't understand it.

hope everyone's well
vard06

Plus i was just talking to my ex on msn , and i now feelmuch less good!