I must be apart of the very few guys on this earth that are far too sensative and emotional when it comes to certain issues.
I've been an only child ever since I was born and for the first 12 years of my life my mum was my best friend (which I now see as a relativealy bad thing, as I didn't have that fire power from my father). I lived in a environemnt which wasnt constant but changing all the time.
I never really found a group of friends that I would be able be to myself with. I was always trying to fit in but only once I started college/uni I was able to conqour good friends and fit in.
I have a serious problem - When I make certain people close into my life, I find it very very hard letting go. Infact so far I have never let go to any one I have made close.
The issue I am having is with my g/f. I think im dateing a manipulative girl, who is not as she makes out but I have left it too late to leave her as I have become really attached to her.
I am not 100% sure she is manipulative but she has many sides of her which I find different and wouldnt have in my ideal women. She has many good sides though, infact much more good sides then the bad but some of the bad, if they were true, I dont know if I could tollerate it.
I am very insecure (to a current extent) of my current gf as some of her actions reminds me of the x, who really turned out to be totally the opposite of who I thought she was. I try my best to not show my insecurity but at times it does slip out.
This is the first night in the whole realtionship where I am loosing sleep over it. I am really unsure if she is genuine or not?
I am not sure if the problem is me or her and I dont want to keep going through these stages where some days I can block it all out and then some days it just stays on my mind.
What should I do?