Hey guys,
Bit of background, I'm in year 13 now finishing off my A levels. I'm naturally fairly clever, however my AS grades were AWFUL, and i mean almost as bad as they possibly could. This was largely due to personally problems and already being a pretty lazy person. This year however i expect to do much better and 3 b's (one of those is general studies) is easily gettable in my opinion, possibly slightly better. I have not applied yet, and i don't expect i will this year..
My whole life however i have planned to go to uni, it's how i've been brought up, and it's something i have always wanted to do. It's not until this year after receiving my results did it occur to me that maybe uni is not that path i will be taking.
here's why i don't want to go. My problem is not my grades. I can and will improve them, my main problem is working out what to do. Please don't write me off as soon as i say this, but although i'm
naturally clever (without meaning to sound arrogant) i have always hated learning, hated school, and never really achieved my potential I also have no real interest in anything subject wise and i tend to day dream the vast majority of lessons away. I know this and accept this and it all points towards me not going, which a part of me thinks in the best option.
However here is the other part. I went to an all boys school. Being shy as well i feel like i have missed out on a HUGE part of life and growing up. I have lots of friends and everything, but i know very few girls and i really feel like i've missed out on a large part of life. I want to go to UNI. I want to live the uni life, but i don't want to learn if that makes sense. But a part of me inside is killing me to fulfil what i feel i missed out on growing up and i'm not sure, but i think that is a huge part of why i want to go to uni. I also feel like, as i am clever, not going to uni would be a waste of a gift.
In summary. I have don't like learning or know what to do, so i don't want to go. But on the flip side i feel like i need to fulfil my childhood and that i'd be wasting my natural talents if i don't go. Can anybody offer me any advice.
Sorry if this seems jumbled or poorly written-it's late. But all help will be vastly appreciated.