hey, your situation is just like mine. I got 7 A*s and 3 As in GCSE and got AAA in january exams in my first year of college, then due to stress, lack of sleep and general problems in life i couldnt cope.. my grades dropped because i stopped trying...thankfully my january grades saved me and i ended up with low(1 mark in) ABBC. I m in my second year now and im not coping..ive got anxiety and stress level is off the roof always. Im not happy with myself and i hate sleeping so i go to bed at 2-4 am so i dont get enough sleep. My school talked to me and they told me ive got 4 months left of college so i should work hard since second chances are rare...they were so kind:'(
im scared to go see a doctor in case they diagnose me with medicine and it goes on my record...because i am applying for a science degree they require a DBS check to check im not 'insane' i dont want my mental state to affect my future aspects.
Ive also been diagnosed dyslexic in year 11 but didnt take extra time because i didnt want it on my record because i wanted to be a doctor and i was afraid medicals schools would prefer non dyslexic candidates.
because of my GCSE grades they put me in ox-bridge group but i didnt want to go to oxford or cambridge. i didnt even want to be a doctor when i started college- i didnt know what i want. i still dont know...my grades are slipping and im scared im never going to get out of this stage.
I need help as much as you. Im not sure how to help you other than let you know that theres people like you out there.Im going to try to accept myself for who i am, even if that is just a anxious, stressed girl. feel free to PM if you want.
xx