Communicating with mum

While I was away on holiday with my friends last week my sister found, by accident, parts of my 'diary' (not really a diary, just stupid scribblings I writewhen I can't sleep). She showed my mum, not to be spiteful but because they made her really upset - they also made my mum upset as well. Basically I just write down all the thoughts going round in my head at night sometimes, just to get them out of my mind. I'm a very private person and don't like talking to people about things that bother me, so I'm now completely devastated and embarrassed that she found all these. It really is stupid stuff, like guy problems, school problems - normal teenager type problems - it's just that I don't talk to anyone about this kind of stuff - not my parents, not even my best friends - and I'm so embarrassed that my mum and sister now know all this kind of stuff about me.

I'm not cross with my sister for finding them, or for showing my mum, I'm just not sure what to do now - my mum told me that they found them and how upset they were to learn how much I've been bottling up, and she told me that if I want to talk to her about anything then I can. I feel I should, but if anything this has made me want to be even more distant from her, and I'm just too embarrassed to approach any kind of conversation about it. It would be far to awkward for me, and I'm sure it would make me cry, which in turn would make her think I've got serious problems. I just don't know what to do, and I don't want her to think badly of me for not confiding in her. I don't want to become even more distant from her and my sister! Any advice?

Reply 1

ImperceptibleNinja

I am very impressed at your attitude and reactions to the un-diary being read. Perhaps you could explain to your mum what you've explained here: the un-diary is an outlet for your emotions on this kind of thing, and that the problems it deals with are normal teenager ones. If you don't like the idea of speaking with your mum about things, then perhaps you could write a letter to her.

Reply 2

aleathiel

I never used to talk to my mum much but we're a bit closer now. Just tell her that its things you didnt really wanna talk about and its nothing bad against her. :smile: