Depression and loneliness

Hello there,

When I found this post, I felt I had an oppurtunity to find someone who I could communicate with.

Last year I had severe depression, it ruined my exams. I have been on antidepressants and antipsychotics (olanzipine and escitalopram) ever since. It happened becuase when I started uni, I couldn't make any friends, I was so lonely, there were some days where I didn't talk to anyone. My friends from college all have girlfriends or jobs or things to live for. I have nothing, I feel i'll never meet a girl, not even as a friend. I haven't been taking my medication for a while but last week I was planning to commit suicide, that feeling subsided. I feel my life and my self is declining gradually into nothing. I might feel again that I will have to kill myself.

Is there anyone who had similar experiences and would like to talk. I desperately would like to talk to someone about it. I feel gradually, my mind is turning into nothing and soon I will be completely non-functional in normal society. Recently I've felt it difficult to operate in normal society. I am so pathetic, so desperate, can I talk to somone out there?

I will private message you if you reply to this and say you want to talk. Thanks.

Reply 1

nettle7

Have you msn?
- actually msn doesn't matter. I will talk to you if you want...

Reply 2

ProfessorFitBoy

I cant say that I'v suffered from clinical depression but I have been very low and very lonely for long periods of time.

I think the first thing you need to do is to try and talk to a professional - not a formal talk but just a chat.
I know its hard (I know myself) but try and join a club or something to meet up with other people.
If you seek professional help you may even be able to get in touch with other people in your situation.

Life is a rollercoaster - it does have ups and downs.
You will not be depressed for the rest of your life so happiness may just be around the corner - it may surprise you when you least expect it.

I am at times lonely myself so you can message me and I will talk as much as you want (it will help me as well!).

Good luck and take care.

Reply 3

Montrose

I have been through an awful lot of that and definitely know how it feels. There have been times when everyone around me has been really really happy, completely made up, while I have been putting up with crap that no human being should have to go through. There were times when it felt like I had nothing, and could see no way of anything improving. I am still here, and I'm a great person, and I am not going anywhere. I know it's hard to do and I always felt like telling people to shut up when they said this to me, but stay positive. Feel free to talk to me if you want. :smile:

Reply 4

nettle7

He will have a library of people soon :smile:

-though I won't be too useful, you realise

Reply 5

713

yep i guess there are lots of people out there with depression.but some don't have it as severe as others,some are not considering suicide others do.and seeing that as an option is terrible for oneself,as you seem to be just going from feeling bad to feeling really really bad where you are actually up to commit suicide and have a fight with yourself whether you should do it in order to end that feeling.
I just wanted to tell you, i feel with you and if you want to you can write me.

Reply 6

alopecia

trust me you are NOT alone! I can totally sympathise with you. i have the same feeling with regards to my life leading to absolutely nowhere. I suffer from serious bouts of self doubt and low, low, low self -esteem. When I went int uni my confidence was subzero and I put up barriers instantly making it super tough to make any friends. Fresher's year passed and was still suffering from the same problems well into second year. To top it all up I've never had a date before and am 20 going on 21 (talk about sad!). It doesn't help when I have all my old school pals talking about 'this holiday' or how many boys they've been out with. At the moment life sucks! I don't want to hijack your thread and turn this into a pity party for me, just wanted to let you know that you are not alone and if you wanna chat feel free to send me msgs or pm me.

Hope things turn out OK for you....

Reply 7

If youwant to talk you can PM me :smile:

I've been going through something similiar this year, maybe I can help? though I can't guarantee anything

Reply 8

Rugar

I'll come out, it was me who made the post. It makes things easier to know that we are not alone. Maybe we could network and support each other. I have messaged some of you, you are welcome to chat to me, whether you have felt low before or not. Please message me if you want to chat. I feel so lonely...