My girlfriend is currently away in Spain on tour with her choir for the week I'm missing her like hell and I've been completely paranoid that something will happen to her, but that doesn't really worry me cuz I knew that would happen to me and I can cope with that... the problem is that three people now have suggested [both jokingly and seriously] that she might be unfaithful, I trust her implicitly and am sure she'd never do anything like that but there's a little voice in my head [not literally] that keeps saying "what if" whenever i hear anything of the sort. I'm really insecure about myseld and it's really screwing me up and I keep having mild panic attacks. I've spoken to her about what people have said [one of these people being a friend of mine which insulted both of us greatly] and she swears that she would never, and it's upset her that I'm getting so messed up. Anyway... the main reason I'm posting is because I'm off to uni this year and my gf is not. I'm worried that these attacks of paranoia are still gonna be a problem there and am seriously considering trying to defer my application so I can get myself sorted out. Is this a good idea or should I try to get my head sorted out in the time I have and risk dropping out if I don't manage?