Problems with uni, depression and everything elseWatch
I’m currently on my second year of computer games design at Wolverhampton Uni. After my first year I had to take two years of leave of absence due to personal/financial reasons and now I’m back at uni. Everything sounds ok but because of personal problems my attendance is close to none. I have passed two out of four or five (yeah I’m that miserable that I’m not even sure what I’m studying) modules. My attendance during this semester is also close to none. I’m going through a lot of personal issues and can’t even rely on my GP who says to me it’s not a depression but just lack of sleep and I need to stress less…
I would want to resolve it, because I really want to finish my studies and I want to move on with my life since past few years it’s been hell for me. Can’t rely on my family since they are in another country and basically I have cut off myself from all of my friends so right now I’m alone with my problems… well, not completely alone, I “have” a boyfriend but he doesn’t give jack about uni and he always marginalise my problems.
I’m just stuck here, with no idea what to do or where to go from here to change my situation. I never thought that I will land in such hopeless place, begging for help but on my own it only got worse…
Big thanks to anyone who will respond to that. I know it sounds like a lot your typical Internet drama and I’m sorry for that. I just don’t know what to do any more.
Have you considered going to a different GP? It sounds like your GP is not supportive at all. If citalopram didn't work for you, they could try other anti-depressants. Have you tried sleeping tablets? I know they have side-effects and can become addictive, but they could give you the short-term fix you need to start fixing things and start recovering from depression!
You say you have no motivation for your course. Are you sure it's the right subject for you? If it is, as hard as it may sound, you need to get yourself back to work. Prioritse your work in terms of nearest deadlines or exams. Just do a little at a time, even if it's just 10min work followed by a 10 minute break. This is how I got through uni exams while suffering from severe depression.
Have you properly explained to your boyfriend how you're feeling? It doesn't sound healthy that he doesn't take your problems seriously.
I would also recommend speaking to the uni counseling service. It's a difficult step to take, but it could make a huge difference to your ability to manage your problems.