Working with someone you want to impress shows you your own limitations, you want to be the best but what peace, contentment, fulfilling purpose etc do you have ?
I saw my own failings and it made me interested to know why certain people were different, they had a contentment & confidence & direction I didn't - they had actually received this other life from God . . .I'm not talking religion but relationship / identity . . after a while I prayed without doubt or fear, wanting to face-up to this Jesus Christ . . .I began speaking in tongues and found another life which enriches me and my relationships.