My boyfriend and I nearly went all the way today but I tensed up and pushed him away. He's a really great guy, but I've got an ex that tried to force things to go further with me before and now I keep getting flashbacks of how scared I got when I was with him.
It feels like there's something wrong with me - my friends seem to find it so easy and can't really understand why I keep holding back with my new boyfriend.
I just don't know how to let go of those fears my ex seems to have instilled in me. I know my new boyfriend is nothing like him - but I'm still scared and I don't know what to do to stop being so tense.