Hello all,
I want to make a thread that makes me feel slightly better about myself. Reading other people in similar situations usually helps. I'm sure there are plenty of us about.
My story in a nutshell:
- used to work in sales before university
- got into uni, one of the best, doing a well-respected degree
- had to help pay for it by being a 'charity fundraiser' (being told to **** off for a living)
- graduated with a 2.1
- 'volunteered' for multiple different groups, got some VERY good experience
- virtually a perfect CV for a 21 year old
Since then:
- got a min. wage job in retail
- applied for literally HUNDREDS of jobs
- not even looking for anything great anymore
- literally the most basic admin job would be a step up, but it is impossible
The only jobs that will even consider me are the ones like charity fundraising, telesales, recruitment consultancy - all jobs which have a massively high turnover of staff and are essentially a 'sink or swim' scenario.
I have posted in mental health because I have now become extremely depressed. When at home, all of these things will happen at least once a day:
- a period of intense unhappiness, when I just lie on the floor or stand with my forehead against the wall, waiting for it to pass over
- a period of intense frustration, when I want to just go on a rampage and destroy everything in sight out of anger
- thinking about '**** it,' have thoughts about doing something reckless like taking out all my money and travelling around the world with it
- the 'realisation' where I realise how worthless I actually am as a person to have been in this situation so long.
I think the absolute worst thing is having to live at home, aged 22, with my parents. I can't control anything in my own life anymore, I have no space to myself.
This isn't living.
Anyway, rant over, share similar experiences please. Helps a lot!