i'm going through EXACTLY the same thing now. my hospital appointment was on tuesday, except my parents were away and my mum said there was NO WAY i could go on my own. so i have to wait til october now. hmmmm. but yeah i check myself at least once a day, it does just mess with your mind
take your mum with you if it makes it easier. i was sobbing when i had my core biopsy (god it hurt, well actually it was the bus journey home, when everything was wearing off and we were going over speed bumps..) and if my mum hadn't been there they probably would have never calmed me down!
it does become quite a funny story when you can tell people you have 7-8 people grope your boob in one day. heh.. (this is what i told people while trying to distract myself from the fact that after 6 weeks i still hadn't got my results..) the good side of it though was that i convinced our teachers we needed a well woman talk at school, and ended up holding fake breasts with lumps in... i broke one by accident...
anyway love, the consultants you see are awesome, you know that. and they've probably seen it all before (i mean, think about the really old people with saggy wrinkly tits they get to treat. mmmmm). the removal is done under general, just cause i think the cut is a bit bigger than the one they do for a core biopsy. it's perfectly safe. and if you're like me, wouldn't you rather lose all the hangups you have over it?