Hey everyone,
i've always been 'different'. I was a troubled child, getting into fights, into trouble and I regret it so much, I failed at school and I don't know where life is leading me, my past of trouble could be preventing me from joining army and some other things like medical issues, but there is still a chance of me getting in, if the british army fails then I am thinking of going to america as I know someone who will sponsor me for a green card and I could attempt to join the army there, but now a medical problem has popped up and if it is too bad i wouldnt be eligible to join the us army. I want to do something exciting in my life and do something that not only helps people but that can potentially save a life.we were only given one life and I want to dedicate my life to a good cause and to live an exciting life. But this all seems to be going down the drain and I don't know what to do with my life. I guess I want to be a somebody and I also know that if the army doesn't work I will end up going down a dark spiral of depression, I used to be a bad person and I've sinned a lot but I want to save people from some of the horrible things the world has to offer but at the same time I want an exciting life and travel a lot, the army offered me all that but that's possibly going down the drain. I don't know what to do.