I'm 19 in September. Off to uni then. Not bad looking, some decent mates, good personality, smart, a bright future some would say. But I just feel like I'm so behind everyone else in my life.
I'm not "experienced". I've never had a boyfriend (partly coz I've never really found anyone and partly because my parents would not approve...) and all my mates have paired up and would always have something to do, even if it was just spending a night in with their "other half".
I've never had a proper job and its too late to find one now as most places want permanent staff which I can't do. I've never been away on holiday with just my mates, when everyone's away celebrating the end of college/school with each other and just having fun.
My parents don't know I drink and keep making me promise that I won't, so I have to pretend I'm sober when I get back from a party. I hate still having to call my parents to tell them where I'm going and then calling me to check when I'll be home. I would blame my parents for being so over-protective of me, but I look so young as well. People always treat me like a kid.
I just feel down coz I feel like I'm missing out on what should be the best years of my life...