Firstly, please read this whole thing. I know it's long, but I wanna give the full story. How to start this...
I've been an absolute fool this year. I postponed my Advanced Higher Physics investigation until the last minute. However, I managed to do all the experiments and write it up.
But... one of my experiments wasn't working. I panicked, and came up with a stupid, stupid plan - to hand in a first draft to my teacher with faked results as a placeholder, so I could get commentary on layout/methodology/uncertainties, and then to run as many results as I could before the Easter break and plug them into the investigation write-up over the holiday.
Unfortunately, the teacher realised they were faked. I tried to explain that they were only a placeholder, but he shouted over the top of me and wouldn't let me even attempt to explain. It was a stupid idea, but I was panicking and I'd barely slept in a week.
I just received a letter from this teacher saying that I will still be able to submit my investigation and sit the exam, but that my SQA certificate will show "incomplete course" due to my daybook/investigation apparently not being high-quality enough.
Thing is, this teacher hasn't fully read my investigation (which is marked by the SQA anyway, not him) and hasn't even seen my daybook yet. He's saying he's going to fail me completely regardless of what I hand in after Easter, and there's nothing I can do.
I can't even attempt to persuade him to give me a chance - he's verbally expressed, both privately and in class in front of other pupils, that he "hates" me (yeah, quote.) He told my parents that he wished I would do worse in my exams. I once spent six months asking him for a replacement jotter once a week, and he refused every time, telling me to go home and look for my old one - then told my parents I'd lost my jotter and never bothered to replace it. He loathes me, and now I've been a fool and placed the ball in his court. I said at the beginning of this year, to my friends, that he would find a way to screw me over, and being a complete moron I faked those results as a placeholder and handed him a way to do it. Note: I usually get on with my teachers and am friends with several, so this isn't me saying the teacher hates me because he's a teacher. This guy genuinely despises me. He has a right to be angry at me, I accept that, but he's using this as an opportunity to be vindictive and ensure I don't get a grade for Physics, as he's pretty much said he's wanted to happen to me for years.
And it's not just me. He's also refused to mark my friend's (who he's expressed similar dislike for) investigation at all, saying he's too busy on the same day he accepted first drafts from others, meaning my friend will be submitting a first draft with no teacher input.
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Anyway. Not getting the grade wouldn't be the end of the world - I have a single unconditional offer, to Edinburgh, my home city - but I desperately, desperately want to go to Imperial College London, and they require an A. My plan is to email Imperial and ask whether, assuming I achieve an A-worthy percentage in the investigation and exam, I'd be allowed to go there anyway, regardless of getting "incomplete course" because of the damn daybook. But that's kinda all I can do and if they say no... well, I'm effed.
I guess I'm partially venting, here, and partially asking if anybody has any other ideas about what I can do. Hell, I've been a goddamn idiot, I know that, but I've learned from my mistakes after this honestly terrifying affair, and I don't reckon I deserve to have my future badly damaged for it. Sigh.