Problem 1)
This morning i went shopping with my mum, she would let me buy the jacket that i want and it only cost £8!! It was so pretty yet my mum just wouldn't let me buy it and the reason was because it's not necesarry!! I have 2 jackets that i normally wear and both were bought from TESCO by my mum. I wear them to work, to gym, school etc... basically everywhere because they are comfy although they are not fancy. I never have any fancy coat (apart from the one for winter) so i always have to wear the same one to different places! Always the BLUE ONE!!! I listened to her is because i respect her, i dont want to act against her wish but she is taking this as a way to control me!!! She wouldn't let me wothdraw money fromthe bank and i am fine with that cus she wants me to save money for UNi; but still, she even asked me to give some of my tips that i got from work for her to buy food (but i didn't give her)?!?! So where am i going to have money to buy stuffs that i want?! I feel like an idiot for listening to whatever she told me to!! Argh!!!!!!!!!! I'm really fustrated!!
Problem 2)
I like a guy at work, i guess he likes me too. I'm being nice to him (smile whenever i see him, which i didn't used to do) so that he knows i like him. When ever i'm at somewhere he could see me, he will look at me; i'll pretend not to notice or sometimes i'll look back and smile(he smiles back most of the times), but when we are close he'll pull back! Take lastnight as example:i went to the glass room to speak to another guy, he was there, so when i spoke to that guy he came beside that guy and listen to us, and i notice looked me in my eyes, after i finished my line i look back in his eyes but he QUICKLY avoid my look ant stare at my feet!!! I was like "ok!" so i turned away and walked out. I'm so fustrated, why cant he show me clearly how he feels about me like other guys would. Mind you, i'm a chinese and he's a british, maybe this is the problem.
I'm really sorry for the long posts! I just cried beforehand because i'm so helpless in these situations (especially problem 1).