My life

this may be a stupid thread but sometimes I feel very sorry for myself and I don’t really want to have this feeling lol no one would, its that since i was a kid i have lived in a very adult atmosphere such as im 15 years younger than my brother and therefore have no one to play kindy games with, also when i was growing up there were family problems and i didnt really get on with my brothers wife and we still live together, i know my brother and his family should move out but our culture believes that a big family is a respectful one, and now that i have come to my senses i fell in love with a guy in a totally different country!! (no not over chat lol) and he sometimes compares me with his old crush who i have never met before but he says oh she’s got funky glasses and I think you should get them too, or tells me how he say this really nice gal on tv and how i should change ,y hair etc: he just says it to make me look good but hes changing me!! and i'm a very simple person. i want to stop feeling this way cause i feel pity on myself when i think about it and at the moment i feel very low! can i have any advice please i would be very thankful!!!