Every time I watch television, the volume has to be set to an even number. If I'm watching a television where the volume has no numbers, I'll count the little lines so I can be sure it's an even number and not odd. When I was younger I had to turn the lights off in a room only after I had crossed the threshold, and had to turn them on before I entered, never after. I get annoyed by the sounds people make when they're eating/chewing to the point that I can't be in the same room as them, and if I can't get away I start to get snappy and extremely tense.
At work I wash my hands every fifteen/twenty minutes whereas the other staff can go the whole day without doing it. I hate the feeling of having something on my hands, especially food. My mum has noticed this and thinks it is strange. Also at work, I am constantly tidying things and cleaning. I find myself arranging things in a certain way, like a pile of papers has to be perfectly in line. I have to press the till buttons in a certain way; everything has to be just right. I obsessively avoid walking across three drains in a row when I'm out, but I sometimes go out of my way to walk across two. The only explanation I have for doing this is that it's 'bad luck' to walk across three and 'good luck' to walk across two (I know this is stupid).
Once I had to re-write a very long essay for college three times because I couldn't stand to have tip-ex or crossings out on the page. It had to be perfect. This has happened many times. When I do written work or try to create something I feel like I am aiming for a very high standard and everything I do falls short of it. I want to be a writer when I grow up but this perfectionism/compulsion makes achieving my dream extremely difficult.
However much I tell myself all these things are irrational and time-wasting, I can't help doing them. I think I have OCD or some other mental illness and I get so frustrated with it. It's not ruining my life and I can have fun like normal people, but every now and then I think about how much better it would be if I didn't have all these obsessions.
Does anyone else suffer from these problems, and how have you coped with it?