Okay so last September I went to uni, thinking I'm going to have an amazing time and meet amazing people. I moved into halls, with 2 guys 6 girls. Freshers week I hadn't received my loan and only went out 4/14 nights, which were great nights because when I'm drunk I feel so comfortable with anyone. Being a naturally awkward person, I found it hard to socialise with the girls as I've never had a platonic relationship with a female and the guy just sits in his room. The conversations with the girls go a little like this
'Hey how are you?'
'Good thanks, you?'
'Great, have uni today?'
'Yeah just finished, you?'
'No not today, loads of work though.' bit more small talk then silence...
Then there was maintenance to be done on my room and the spare room not long after moving in, I had to move out for a few months. I was placed in an international flat, where all students stayed in their rooms. I was living alone for a while, very lonely. I played football and met people through football, which helped a lot and also have 4/5 friends already here. I was excited to move back into the original flat, finally did but the girls bond grew stronger, done everything together, while I was still on my own. Its really affected me this year, because when I'm at uni/football or just away from the flat I'm cool, but when I get back I feel so alone. Everyone in the downstairs kitchen, getting ready to go out, while I'm laying in my room.
Its not like the girls haven't tried to get me out with them, but when I have gone, I just can't have a proper conversation with them. Can't be drunk every time I go downstairs or to dinner with them to feel comfortable.
Dunno if you guys could give me advice or anything, just needed somewhere to get this off my chest lol