Hello,
I'm starting University this September in Wales which I'm very happy about.
I'm was made redundant a few months ago and had £2,000 to my name.
However, I've I wanted to win some money to take to University so I can live comfortably and have a nice safety net.
I ended up depositing £100 to a betting site and won £400 on my first go (probably the worst thing that can happen). I carried on betting with this and ended up losing the £400 + my original £100.
I began chasing my losses a few days ago and kept depositing £100 and betting it hoping to 'draw even' and tell myself I will stop when I break even.
I've now ended up losing £1,500 of my £2,000 on gambling and just can't stop chasing my losses, I don't know what's wrong with me because this isn't like my personality at all. I just convinced myself I could win like £5,000 in time for Uni and live a nice comfortable life down in Wales but obviously it's all gone wrong.
I'm in the process of selling my bedroom furniture but I worry I'll lose my £500 that I have left and also whatever else I make from selling by trying to win back my original money.
I feel really sick now and all I can think about is this money I've lost. I'm disgusted with myself and am starting to feel depressed due to my new found weakness.
What can I do? How can I stop chasing my losses? What can I tell myself to stop betting and also how can I move past this?