When I feel depressed I tend to withdraw and go quite around my family.My relationships with them have changed alot.They are constantly judging me for being this way.They ask me, do you not know how to talk? they call me boring, and i feel put on the spot some times when they're like okay tell us something good anything', it just reminds me how much i've changed and i become so overwhlemed. Whenever my mum introduces me to others she's like 'this daughter used to be so talkative now she hardly talks', it's like it's making my problems so obvious to others!I have alot going on in my head which I get is sometimes self inflicted/destructive, but the'ye judgments make me worry even more.
I hate that I can't get out of my own head sometimes and enjoy myself with family.I would rather someone else started of a conversation as in my current state of mind I feel drained and cannot think of anything.Why can my family not see this?I can easily tell when someone is feeling down and the last thing i would do is tell them to entertain me with conversation, instead I would try and take their mind of whatever it is. Alot of the time I'm upset about silly things so I can't always explain to others.
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