I'm 18 and I've always struggled with friendships and the people whom I used to consider as my best friends always turned their backs against me to 'maintain their reputation'. I used to feel like I couldn't trust anyone because of this long history of horrible friendships, until two years when I finally found a friend whom I can actually call a best friend and he's been amazing.
It used to be just me, him and another guy whom we're pretty close with and we all have similar interests and we all click together but ever since this summer my best friend's always wanted to hang out as a group so instead of the usual three we're a group of seven and I don't know why and I can't explain it at all but I always feel extremely extremely uncomfortable and uneasy (I suffer from horrible social anxiety) and I start to feel claustrophobic and I start to panic a bit because I never know what to say since I have nothing in common with the others.
My best friend kind of realised that I feel uncomfortable in this group but he still continues insisting that I invite them to come with us whenever we do something. Truthfully, sometimes I just enjoy it when we go out alone (just me, him and my other friend) because I can be myself and I don't feel panicky. For example, I'm inviting both of them to my house tomorrow to swim and when my best friend asked if the others were invited, he started guilting me when I told him I had only invited them and I feel horrible now.
I'm not really sure what to do because I can't really handle this group thing anymore. I don't know how to explain it to them and I don't want him to hate me (I'm pretty sure I'm starting to annoy him because I think he feels like this keeps happening). What can I do?
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