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    Hi everyone. Basically I have been with my first boyfriend for half a year now and 2-3 months in, we started with foreplay. I wasn't comfortable with it at first but gradually, I opened up to him and let him touch me.
    It seemed okay at first, but I don't know why that I am starting to feel really guilty recently.

    I've always wanted to wait until marriage but I don't know why, I was raised up that it's a mortal sin to be intimate with anyone before marriage even though my family is not religious. So maybe that has something to do with it.

    I told him in the beginning I wanted to wait until marriage, then I changed my mind later on and said he will have to wait because i'm not sure yet, and I could have sex with him... but not now.
    I hate how wishy-washy I am, I'm never good at making decisions.
    He never forced me, but I just feel like it's wrong. Like why am I doing this so early, we never slept with each other.
    Why do I feel like this? I don't want to feel like this, but I don't know what to do. it's bad enough that he can't have sex with me. I'm awful, aren't I?
    It's not like I can just go 'stop touching me' and everything will go back to the way it was?

    Can someone explain why I might feel like this? is it because everything is new to me, and it's my first time?
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    You don't ever have to do anything that you don't want to do. Not with your boyfriend, not with anyone. You not wanting to have sex is a perfectly valid position to take regardless of the reasons. If you don't want to carry on doing whatever you've been doing then don't. It's as simple as that. If your boyfriend can't wait then that's okay too, it just means that you two weren't sexually compatible. It'd suck, but that's just the way it goes sometimes. (Also, if that is the case he's not in the wrong either)

    That being said, sex is a perfectly natural act that probably isn't what you think it is. There is no such thing as 'sin' and you haven't done anything wrong at all. My advice is that you really need to calm down about sex - it's supposed to be fun (and it is). Sex really isn't as important as you're making it in your head. Just chill out and you'll know when you want to have sex.
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    You don't ever have to do anything that you don't want to do. Not with your boyfriend, not with anyone. You not wanting to have sex is a perfectly valid position to take regardless of the reasons. If you don't want to carry on doing whatever you've been doing then don't. It's as simple as that. If your boyfriend can't wait then that's okay too, it just means that you two weren't sexually compatible. It'd suck, but that's just the way it goes sometimes. (Also, if that is the case he's not in the wrong either)

    That being said, sex is a perfectly natural act that probably isn't what you think it is. There is no such thing as 'sin' and you haven't done anything wrong at all. My advice is that you really need to calm down about sex - it's supposed to be fun (and it is). Sex really isn't as important as you're making it in your head. Just chill out and you'll know when you want to have sex.
    Thank you very much, I will chill out. Guess it's from family influence, but yes you're right. I will see how things go, thank you
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    I think it's just that you haven't done it before and you're questioning whether it's 'right'. See, thing is there is no such thing as sexual activity being right or wrong because almost every person and living organism does it. It is however a question of whether it feels right to you and whether you want to do it. Every human lives their live in a different way, some base their lives around sex and some become nuns and monks. Others are in the middle. It's entirely up to you what you do based on how you feel and you shouldn't look for any sort of social or moral acceptance because the act of sex and sexual activity is a completely normal thing. If you feel comfortable enough to do things and start to become sexual, then go for it. If you have other reasons such as you feel you're too young or it's the wrong guy and so on then leave it until a later date. It's your decision.
 
 
 
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