Im off to Uni, like a lot of people on here and i have a problem, i think im scared of boys- probably more so, relationships. Ive never let myself get close to someone, the truth is that im scared. I have little self-confidence. Im a quiet person, but in front of people i think i put on some form of act, im loud and funny- no-one really knows that im insecure and shy because try not to show it. I dont have any boy friends as such, but i am friendly with some. The thing is, im scared that at Uni this will prevent me from joining in, and also getting into a relationship- and as i'll be behind everyone else things will be made harder. I dont want to lie about my past, and make-up experience, but then again it will be hard to be one of the few who have had no experience with boys and i dont want people to think im something im not. Im not religious or anything, theres no reason for any of this, except that i find it hard to put my trust in someone. I dont go out to clubs to pull for example, I go out to have a good time. I dont think i could even be comfortable getting completely drunk and pulling someone. Its not just the confort thing as well, i have doubts all the time that 'they dont fancy me anyway' or 'im just a quick pull' and i dont feel right about that. I just want to find someone who would value a relationship, and is comfortable with the fact that im inexperienced.
This was nice to get it off my chest, ive never told anyone any of this, just avoided the question/situation. I dont really know what im looking for in the way of advice, but any would be great as its been on my mind a bit and i'd rather get this problem sorted sooner rather than later! Thanks