I don't want to pressurise you but you really are better off posting on here or a similar site.
Like you, when I sought help from the Samaritans through their confidential email service I was basically fobbed off once they figured out I wasn't suicidal.
Plus, even if you do meet with a counsellor face-to-face (or over the phone, or online), as I have done in the past too, they aren't permitted to give advice as that isn't their role. You would need a psychologist for that and their service doesn't come for free.
Very few people that access sites like TSR are professionals in any way, and you might not always agree with or like what they say, but I have to say, it's the only honest advice you'll get for free.
Hope you find a solution that suits you.