Hello, this is my first post. Im sorry it couldnt be with happier times but Im really feeling quite low at the moment.
First of all, I crashed my car. Well I didnt crash it, somebody drove into the side of me while I was turning right at a mini roundabout & it is completely wrecked. The whole side door & rear panels are smashed in plus a huge crack in the windshield , a massive crease in the roof, plus the engine & steering & brakes are broke. Its a write-off. I wasnt that bothered at the time, but now Im almost shaking with shock when I re-register what actually happened. Just one minute I was driving along on my way to the bank & then BANG!. I was span out in the middle of the road, & other cars beeping & shouting at me to get out of the way! Like I could!
And then I received a phone call from one of my friends, telling me that one of my best mates of 16 years (Im 20) tried to hang himself on Tuesday night. He actually had the belt hanging around his neck from the banister & was hanging there. If the other male housemate wasnt there, he would be dead.
Both times I went through these shocking events, I was fine until afterwards when the reality of both situations hit me in how serious there were. I swear I was almost in tears. I just feel completely out of my depth & am just numb. Whenever Im left alone with my thoughts, I cant help but stray to the incidents. Sorry if this is all rambling crap, my mind is all over the place at the moment