Finding it really hard Watch
My dilemma is that I love the university itself as the course is fantastic and covers everything I want to learn about but living with other people my age has turned out much harder than I expected. I probably wouldn't mind it as much if I lived on my own. I've spoke to my family about moving back home and studying at my local university so that I can still live at home and still do my studies. They keep suggesting that I stick it out as long as possible but I'm finding it really hard to cope and keep a smile on my face. I'm not looking for attention but I just want to see if there are people in the same position as myself but I also suffer with anxiety and homesickness which has gotten a lot worse since being here and it is just making me miserable and upset all the time and when I am my regular self I am normally very happy and smiley all the time and I was getting a lot better with my anxiety before I came and I feel really disappointed that I have got back to the stage I was earlier on this year.
Another thing I am worried about if I was to leave is what would happen to my loans I have taken out for this year. I have done some research into it but it still isn't 100% clear. If I do leave I will probably take a gap year then apply again for next year to a university closer to home, is this a difficult process or is it just the same as last year?
I hope I'm not the only one in this situation as my mum has been reassuring me that there are plenty of others in the same boat as me but I just feel alone on this.
Student life, in partnership with UEA
You can't expect miracles of yourself so don't give up while you're waiting for one. Just go with it, go with the awkwardness, talk to your family lots, whatever it takes to get you through your first month - and things will start feeling better I'm sure.