One minute I'm amazingly happy, the next I think 'god, I really want a bloody boyfriend' and get all annoyed thinking 'am I not pretty/smart/funny/good enough' and compare myself and get jealous of my friends with boyfriends (they all seem to have one), then I think 'why are all my friends so eugh'. Then I'm ok, then I think 'I want to get away. Escape. Run away. To a country that's so far away'. Next it's 'I wish I was somebody else... perhaps *so and so*'(I do this one alot) then I feel guilty for not appreciating my family, but I am not guilty for not appreciating my friends funnily enough. Then I return to a some what normal state.
I am also paranoid that people I know have my IP number and are monitoring what I am looking up on the net. Which would be slightly embarassing, to say the least. Are these mood swings normal for a teen? I mean, I know they can be extreme, but this could all be the space of maybe 20, 30 minutes. Maybe I just have too active an imagination. This also leads to heaps of procrastination, which then leads to my self pitying whinging about it, when it's just my fault in the end. I'm trying to convince myself that this is normal for a teen, but it's not really, is it?