I've been a regular cannabis user since i was 14 i'm now 18, I've been smoking about 3 spliffs a day everyday. I've been getting good grades since i was in high school so i thought it wasn't a problem and knew i would stop when they started to fall. My gcse results were 5A's and 5B's and after my first year of AS study i got 5 very good A grades chem/bio/maths/law/eng lit. Until a few weeks ago I thought it was great smoking and getting some of the best grades in the school but i've realised that in order to do that i have really shut myself off, i have 4 close friends who i smoke with and we all feel exactly the same we can't talk to other people without just wanting them to go away, i havent had a gf for over a year now and can feel bad depression on its way.
I've realised i dont have a passion for anything, i only really enjoy smoking and TV, socailising is a chore even with my close friends now, I've got absolutly nothing to say even to them! I was going to go to uni next year but now i cant decide what course i want to do and don't feel like i could endure ANY, because i just don't enjoy anything anymore.
I don't think i can get through this without help, im thinking of getting anti-depressants from GP to help me see the brightside of life but will i just get hooked on those too?
I dont even know why im writing this, its just i dont feel like a staright A student i feel like a depressed weed addict whos going to be confined to his negitave world forever.
Sorry for wasting your time............