I'm currently in year 13 of sixth form and I'm hating it, it has become a cycle of misery for me and is turning my life into a complete bore.
I am currently attending a highly pressurised school, and have always been labelled 'intelligent' so my parents have high expectations for me, and want me to continue, however it's making my existence feel unbearable, I know this just isn't the right path for me.
Since the beginning of my first year of sixth form I have been struggling with an eating disorder as well as mild depression, which I guess has also made it tougher for me to concentrate on anything else.
Nearing exam time I have severe anxiety, and the only way I can sit exams is if I feel like I know everything, or I end up having panic attacks, so there isn't really an option for me to take a more relaxed approach to the examination process.
I haven't been attending school for 5 weeks, as I can't cope with the environment and constant testing, however my parents are convinced I am able to go back, I can't put myself through the hell of last year again I'd rather drop out or fail, than feel they way I did around exam time last year and have to listen to everyone rambling on about uni when I have no prospects of going.
I'm currently studying Chemistry, biology and psychology. At AS I got a C in chem, B in biology, B in art and A in psychology. My GCSE's were good, 2 A*'s, 5A's and 2B's.
I started the uni application process as it seemed to be what everyone else was doing, but I was only vaguely interested in the course and i just don't feel it's worth my time or money anymore.
I am also currently working part time and it seems to be the only thing I currently enjoy, but again is taking away from 'valuable study time'. I really just want to know what my options are. I feel like I can't continue with school any further, it's making me feel ill. I have never considered anything else so I feel like I'm clueless to alternatives to A level, I don't want this to screw up my life, but by the way my parents talk if I don't get my A levels I am condemned to a life of manual labor jobs, long hours and rubbish pay, which is making me feel even worse about the whole situation. What should I do and what are my choices from here?
Thankyou