I get exhausted from socialisingWatch
However, I am forced by social convention to talk to people, often with disastrous consequences. I end up feeling drained and depressed. I linger over the smallest details of every conversion afterwards and I review my own performance as a speaker and harshly criticise myself.
I've never really enjoyed socialising the way normal people do. I have trouble expressing myself in casual conversation because my worldview often seems quite strange and detached in comparison to the outlooks and perspectives of normal people. There are moments when I wonder whether individualism is a gift or a curse.
some people are like that, it doesn't have to be the end of the world, just learn to work around it