The Past.......

This is going to sound a bit, if not very weird, but I´d like your opinions on it :

Ever since I was a little child I have had an obsessive fascination with history, especially British history (I am not british) ant with aristocracy. I´m 17 now, and it just gets worse and worse : instead of doing my homework or going out and socialising I stay at home and do research on nobility or read a book about nobles. I get high just from watching historical movies (especially the 17/18 century) and suffer from bouts of depression when I think that I can never live during that period; I sometimes think about killing myself in the vain, vague hope that . I actually lead a happy life, my parents are well off, I have quite a lot of good friends, etc... so it is not some surpressed unhapiness. The only source of unhappiness in my life is actually that : the fact that I can´t live back then. I realise this sounds ludicrous and selfish to people that have other more " serious" problems, but it is making me suffer a lot. I am so completley, utterly obsessed that I have made it my life´s goal to marry a British aristocrat and live in a stately house. No, this won´t be "golddigging" because I am automatically, genuinely in love with anything related to nobility and the past, I am not that shallow a person. Only I know that this goal is a difficult one, what are the chances that I catch an aristos´ eye ? So I am making my life hellish, with stupid fantasies and regrets... am I mentally ill ?

Reply 1

a_t

Hahahahaha! This cannot be serious, I can't go out because I love reading? Hahahahaha!

Manon

am I mentally ill ?

Well there's definitely something wrong with you

Reply 2

saoirse

you might have an obsessive personality type. or you might be using your passion for history to escape from the reality of your own life. sounds like talking to somebody wouldnt hurt, but try not to worry too much about it :smile:

Reply 3

WokSz

You know - if you want to be like that, you can be. Work hard at school, get a good job and become an aristocrat. Nowadays, anything is possible if you can afford it :P

Reply 4

scribble_girl

You've got a passion? Brill. Make some money out of it, you're the kind of person that makes it to the top of a field because you love something so much.
And hey, that kind of thing doesn't float my boat, but whatever makes you happy =]]

Reply 5

filastini

scribble_girl

Good thinking :yy:

I agree.

Reply 6

Manon

Indeed I could try and make money out of it, but that´s quite unlikely : how many people would buy a book on aristos ? And I´m hardly going to make a groundbreaking discovery.

You know - if you want to be like that, you can be. Work hard at school, get a good job and become an aristocrat. Nowadays, anything is possible if you can afford it

No, I´ma fraid not, money cannot buy you a title...

Reply 7

Shreerac1

You can't be serious? I bet you'd like a slave too wouldn't you.

Reply 8

Manon

I am dead serious. That is precisely why I am worried.

Reply 9

Leisure17

Manon

I am dead serious. That is precisely why I am worried.

Well if you are worried enough to think something might be wrong, why not talk to someone about it.
What makes you want to ecape the here and now?

Reply 10

bluenoxid

Counselling is the only option. Chat to your Doctor about it.

But I agree with the people about making money out of the passion by becoming an expert

Reply 11

Tomber

Haha I prefer history books to nightclubs too. Though I'm more interested hte histories of the lower social orders and I can't say that I want to have lived then. It would be fascinating to visit though

also: Hey Noxid keighley/ Skipton person, kinda near ripon :smile: